El Dorado (el duh-RAH-doh) noun
A place offering fabulous wealth or opportunity.
In this blog, in various ways, I think I always speak of change. Soon now, I hope, I anticipate, its awaited arrival. My strength wanes--how long is too long to wait?--in the face of constant pushing.
My job. My career. My age. Reconciling each of these takes a lifetime. Yes, I'm writing more, that's good. Applying to school, fantastic. Interviewing for different positions, wonderful. I am in a room of lit fuses, yet each bomb may never go off. From where do I muster that extra lodge of patience, of optimism, of shining hope?
I am tired, scared of the unknown. And with that fear, I feel shame in my weakness. Please God, or Fate, or angels in my wake, lead me to a place where I shed these civilized stresses and breathe again the cool air of self-contentment.
